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[16 Jan 2007|02:21pm]
I lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks.. yay

I didn't fall asleep in math today, and I raised my hand and asked a question in class!

I haven't missed church in a month

I have only drank twice since the beginning of december


four major steps in my life.


<3 Ginny
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November 16th, 2004 [16 Nov 2006|04:50am]
[ mood | distressed ]

2 years ago I wrote an entry in this livejournal. I just went back and re-read the whole thing. I really miss the person I used to be.. I don't like the lazy person I have turned into. Yeah, it's hard to get yourself motivated in college but 2 years ago I put myself on a strict diet, followed it, and worked out in my free time. I was so much more motivated back then.. what happened?? I was always happy, except for the occasional entry about nick but even those weren't that negative. they were just about how much I missed him and would always care about him. I look back at how young I was then but how much more wisdom I had then than I do now. whether I want to admit it or not, drinking really has changed me in ways I don't like. Throughout high school, I never drank. I drank a few times senior year but as soon as I hit college it has become a weekly thing. It's hard not to do it because its so much fun but I think somehow it effects the way I think and the way I view myself. It seems like the older we get, the more we miss our innocence from our younger days. I don't even know why I am awake right now. Its 10 minutes til 5am and I'm sitting at my computer.

i guess i'll force myself to sleep.

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homecoming 2006. fsu. [15 Nov 2006|03:07pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

it's homecoming week at Florida State and I'm getting excited. the website promised a lot of cool events every day and I was pumped for all of them.

That is.. until I attended one.

Vanessa and I were excited for monday night's "Spear-it Night". There would be different organizations performing in a talent show and the start of the "biggest fan on campus competition" So we got there around 7:30 and the place was packed. I got this weird feeling like none of the people there wanted to be there. I talked to a few people waiting in line and they were all complaining how their prospective sorority or frat forced them to go so they would have enough attendance to win the events. I signed the list for CSU (catholic student union) and continued on into the ballroom. I ran into one of my guy friends and asked him what he was up to. He told me how there wasnt enough guys there from his frat so he kept going back to the sign in list and signing different names. Hmm. so isn't homecoming supposed to get people pumped about their school? they shouldn't be forced to go because that just kills the excitement. Most people left before the show was over and of course they saved the best acts for last. Vanessa and I were pretty hyper and I went crazy when these freakin amazing dancing troupes performed song medleys with justin timberlakes new cd in the mix. all three of the groups had to have been professional because I felt like I was watching a dance from the VMA's. It was awesome and I had a great time.

So last night, Vanessa and I got all dressed up in our Western gear and went to "Seminole Showdown" where they had inflatable obstacle courses and jousting rings. There was also free sonnys bbq, popcorn, and cotton candy. Along with a DJ and various contests. Once again I was sad to see people coming in, signing the sheet, and leaving but what can ya do? As I looked around, I really felt like Vanessa and I were two of the only people who really just went out to the events to celebrate homecoming. We helped out CSU's attendance but really, I didn't even know about that until I was handed a sheet and told to sign in under my organization. Kinda sad? I'm just not used to this whole huge school thing. Homecoming at Charlotte high may have seemed lame to some people but everyone truly enjoys it and isn't forced in any way to participate. Homecoming week in Punta Gorda is exciting and everyone seems to come together in some way or another.

Next year, my goal is to be a part of Florida States Homecoming Committee. I want to do whatever it takes to bring punta gordas good old excitement to florida states homecoming. That means when people pass by FSU they will know its homecoming and people will want to come visit because of it. (I won't have someone come up to me that was walking around campus ask, what the heck is going on!? because they will know its homecoming week!)
okay so, maybe this isn't something that will really help me in life but I think it's something I'm good at and I want to be just as involved at FSU as I was in high school. At first FSU really scared me and I thought there was no way I could make it to the top but now I feel I can do anything I put my mind to.

Tonight, I will sadly be missing the "star studded skit night" and CSU's spirit night. butttttttttt I guess I have to work sometime!

well. go noles.

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these shoes rule... these shoes suck. ahahhha [07 Nov 2006|11:56am]
[ mood | awake ]

things I don't want to forget from this weekend..
-one of my funnest nights in tally with my newest friend Vanessa. night nole, floyds, new friends on the 2nd floor, signs, spanish moss, and starting chants.
-studying for over 10 hours and getting a 78 % on a test. (it's an improvement at least)
-made puppy chow with Barbara. just search this chex cereal receipe and you will thank me. hahaha
-saw Borat with Emily and Tammy from work. it was pretty funny but some parts were kinda gross. (hotel scene)


well, i'm pretty much screwed for my oceanography test. I have to memorize 100 practice questions that will make up the 50 question test. The bad part is, I have to find all of the answers for the 100 questions and hope that they are all right. I have to do this tonight since I have to work wednesday and the test is thursday. :-(

I also have a "prospectus" due tomorrow for a 1,000 word research paper where I have to write about a movie that deals with race, class, gender, or sexuality.

I think I'm going to do save the last dance and relate it to race issues and interactial relationships. well, we will see.


I voted today and I feel very good about it. it literally took me 10 minutes to change my address right at the polls and vote so if you're 18 you should do it!!!!

well, thats it im going to study bye!

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[30 Oct 2006|05:19am]
[ mood | crazy ]

did I really just stay up until 5 am playing mario world on a Super Nintendo?


clare, take this system back to gainesville because it's wayyyyyyyy too addicting for this girl. hahaha


so, PG was relaxing. cam and alyssa came over and surprised me but it only made me realize how much I miss them.

i really should sleep since i have class in... 4 hours. awesomeeeeeeeeee

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[27 Oct 2006|01:08am]
[ mood | content ]

sooo, im going home to PG this weekend. I'm looking forward to seeing my family and a few of my friends but I really don't miss it at all. I've really grown up a lot since I moved here. I've seen pretty much everything and I really like it up here. yet another week has flown by and I'm wondering where the time went. Tonight I made dinner for manda, barb, tyler, and vanessa. we had such a fun time just hanging out and laughing. I like nights like that, where you can have no worries.. sit around and play video games and laugh at funny videos. We were also reminiscing about after prom last year. We had the best time of our lives, all 15 of us riding around in the back of my moms mini-van with no seats in the car except the drivers. Even the music we listened to was so funny to look back on. (Whit and her hardcore underground rap). hahahah. High School and Punta Gorda can be summed up into one word. Simple. I think that town is in a totally different world from everyone else and its so weird when you move and you realize it. you realize how different we were from everyone else. Tally reminds me a lot of cleveland and it's strange because I feel like im picking up where I left off back in 4th grade.

I have so many tests next week and so little time to study. Halloween/andrews bday is really going to kick me in the butt this week. I NEED to get good grades to bring my C+'s up to B's. One thing I really hate about college:

Your grade for most classes is based on four tests and the occasional paper. being that I'm a terrible test taker, I havent really gotten higher than a C on any tests yet.

say a prayer for me?

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[22 Oct 2006|11:11pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

so, it was an eventful weekend to say the least. I came home from work to a party in my apartment. that pretttttty much pissed me off since I wasnt ever told about it so I spent friday night in my room with andrew. gayy. saturday, slept in until I had to work for 8 hours straight. ugh. oh well, I made $98.00 in tips! and the noles lost again :-( ugh. oh well, I never get to go to the games anyway since GAY jim and milts makes me work during every one. w/e again. After the game me, clare, elena, and manda went to phils bday party then over to the u-club crews apt. it was fun stuff. andd today was a nice day of relaxation, church, and the grocery store. I'm going home to pg this weekend because my aunt Ginny is visiting from hawaii and my uncle John is visiting from Colorado. I'm glad to go home, I miss my fam and some of my bffs and of course my SNUFFY!!!


hehehe. well, i should get some sleep. oh yeah, tomorrows high for tallahassee is 66 degrees with abundant sunshine and a slight breeze. you wish you lived in tally now don't you??? :-D

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[20 Oct 2006|03:37pm]
[ mood | cold ]

well, class was boring as usual. My family relationship development class was disgusting. We are learning about Sexually Transmitted Infections and our teacher uses real and extremely graphic pictures. I felt nautious and had to bury my head into my computer. Anyways, I got my film midterm back.. got a solid C. She said the class did bad so I think thats a reasonable grade. Whatever! thank GOD its the weekend. took forever to get here. Next semester im trying to arrange my classes so I have all Fridays off. I doubt I'll be able to but I will try!

This song is awesome. It's playing on my journal so listen to it. Thats all for now. g2g get ready for work at Jim & Milts BBQ!

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[19 Oct 2006|06:54pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Okay, I need to make myself continue to write in this because I love looking back at old entries and remembering what I did every day in life. (I just read some old entries from 2003!!) I'm going to make this a habit again. So. today, I met with my "graduate assistant" Tracy and we went over some ways to study for certain tests.

[Basically, since I have started at FSU this summer, the highest grade I've received on a test is a low B and I have been getting mainly D's on all of my tests. So I decided I really needed help since I'm failing every test regardless of how much I have studied. So! Now I am in a study skills/academic consultation type of thing. I went to the Adult Learning Evaluation Center and I'm hoping it will help me do better.] So Tracy had me map out my schedule and every week she tells me I have to put in study time everyday and I haven't pushed myself to do it. I also need to push myself to start eating better and going to the gym so I can lose all the weight I've gained. I also need to get my prayer life up and running again. So pretty much, I'm overwhelmed and am still making the transition to tallahassee even though its been almost 4 months!

It's so crazy how time flies. It's already 7 o'clock? where the heck did the day go? All I did was go to my meeting, then go to class, then sit at home. I feel like my life is in fast forward right now and I'm trying to get it together. All I need to do is trust God 100% and try to stop running my own life and everything will fall into place.

I think this journal thing really will help me.

I must add that the Justin Timberlake CD is AMAZING. Best CD from any artist in years. He is awesome.




*EDIT*


random paragraph from an old entry in 2004-- (its amazing how right I was so long ago)

I'm really enjoying high school and I dont want it to ever end. College I'm sure will be fun too but I know for me it will be a struggle. A struggle to hold on to my faith and to work hard at my future. I'm just so incredibly lazy, I don't know how I will manage. Well... I have another year to grow up and enjoy life I guess.
Things with Andrew are great. I really care about him a lot =). It's nice to have someone you can be yourself around... 100% of the time. We are going to last a long time and I look forward to it.


I think Journaling is really important. more important than I ever imagined. I look back on that simple sentence and it's scary how much wisdom I had then. The college thing is EXACTLY what I'm going through and me and Andrew have been together almost 2 years =).

k thats it.

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hey sup [04 Oct 2006|04:40pm]
[ mood | sick ]

well, I have written since easter so heres a recap of important events:

-Prom
-Graduation
-Grad parties
-S4TL
-Moved to Tallahassee
-FSU SUMMER C
-19TH BIRTHDAY
-FSU Fall Semester
-Catholic student union retreat
(ran into a girl named Sara I had met at a camp called covecrest 4 years before)
-Job at Jim & Milts

the end.

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[16 Apr 2006|08:46pm]
[ mood | blah ]

well, spring break is over and it went way too fast.

I didn't get anything done that I said I would except 20 notecards for my research paper. I have 30 to go to turn in tomorrow..I'll do them sometime tonight I suppose.. Hopefully Mr.Muehl doesnt make me take the test I missed tomorrow or else I am 100% sure I will fail it... and I have no excuse since I had all spring break to study. I'm just not going to mention it and hope he will forget I need to take it. I hope I don't work a lot this week.

Happy Easter to anyone reading this. My Easter was swell. I went to church, ate breakfast, and accidently fell asleep until 2pm. Woke up.. sat on the computer? then hung out with my family and ate dinner. My grandparents came over, they are so funny. I Love them so much. =)

well I better get going on those cards.. <3 ya



On the first day of the week,
Mary of Magdala came to the tomb early in the morning,
while it was still dark,
and saw the stone removed from the tomb.
So she ran and went to Simon Peter
and to the other disciple whom Jesus loved, and told them,
“They have taken the Lord from the tomb,
and we don’t know where they put him.”
So Peter and the other disciple went out and came to the tomb.
They both ran, but the other disciple ran faster than Peter
and arrived at the tomb first;
he bent down and saw the burial cloths there, but did not go in.
When Simon Peter arrived after him,
he went into the tomb and saw the burial cloths there,
and the cloth that had covered his head,
not with the burial cloths but rolled up in a separate place.
Then the other disciple also went in,
the one who had arrived at the tomb first,
and he saw and believed.
For they did not yet understand the Scripture
that he had to rise from the dead.
-John 20:1-9

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[15 Apr 2006|03:14am]
[ mood | sick ]

okay so, I still havent started anything that I said I was going to start which means I need to dedicate 5 hours tomorrow and sunday to homework. Andrew didnt come home which upset me times 10000000xxxxxxx because I wanted to see him so badly and today (13 days before prom I might add)I find out that he cant come. The same weekend of prom, andrew has a drum corps camp. His drum corps leader won't let him miss any of it because "it is not his prom and it is not a valid excuse for him to miss practice and I can do without him for one night". Andrew tried to fight the guy but he wouldnt change his mind. I guess I'm fine with that. I mean, its just prom its really not that big of a deal. but.. it is my senior prom and... I'm sure I could have found a guy friend to go with if Andrew had gotten a final answer out of him earlier. (p.s. yeahhh I'm SURE there are plenty of guys out there I could still get to go with me but I don't want to go with a guy I'm not really good friends with or someone semi-random. It would just be weird and awkward and I dont want my prom to be anything but fun). It's going to suck to not have a guy to be with in pictures and it's going to suck to be the girl who wedges her way in the middle of everyone without someone to dance with, and ::sigh:: I'll be the girl who runs to the bathroom during all the slow songs. I'll probably sit there a shed a tear or two until I hear the next rap remix with lil' jon or young jeezy come on a minute later. I hope I can still have a good time. Theres a good possibility two of my girlfriends dont have dates/ are having problems with their dates so I'm hoping thats still the case so I can stick to them... or there dates will work out and I'll be stuck by myself. I knoww lots of people go single to prom but I'm serious when I say I do not know one person right now that doesnt have a date or someone in mind. Like seriously, even the people you would never expect have dates.


today, sat the 15th, marks 8 months since Matt died. Its so unreal. I used to spend literally every single day with that kid my sophomore year. I'll never forget it, we had the best times ever together. I never thought I would lose a best friend physically. I never thought it could happen to me. the worst part is we drifted so much before senior year and then it was too late to catch up.



so basically, baby, its 3am I must be lonely

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first update in a year... HAHHA [13 Apr 2006|01:15pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

soooo I felt like updating for the first time in a year. how fun. it's spring break, I have a research paper to write for ENC1102 on the tobacco industry and how its advertisements contributes to the serious illnesses in america, a test to study for in BSC1011 which covers 6 chapters (thats dc biology to you underclassman), about 20 pages of math analysis homework that I have no clue in the world how to do, 3 scholarships to fill out, an extremely messy room to clean, and I'm supposed to wait in a huge line to get a shot for college sometime today or tomorrow between 8-11am or 1-4pm. I have approximately 3 days 17 hours and 34 minutes (89 hours) to complete these tasks.. subtracting time to sleep--- which leaves about 64 hours subtracting church tonight-- 62 hours--- and showers--60 hours and then work on friday 54 hours then church again saturday night for easter vigil--50 hours.


so I have about 50 hours. minus about 30 I will spend on facebook or myspace or now livejournal or on the phone or watching tv or eating or hanging out with friends and andrew if he comes home this weekend

so I have 20 hours
to complete a research paper
study for a huge test
get a shot
do math homework
clean my room

and I guaruntee I wont clean my room so scratch that off the list

so I have 20 hours
to complete a research paper
study for a huge test
get a shot
do math homework
clean my room
then I should probably add shopping because I have to buy a tank top for work and I need jeans badly since another pair got a hole in the wrong place and I need gold shoes for prom

okay so now I have 20 hours to

-do paper
-study
-get a shot
-math homework
-shop
oh crap i forgot about the scholarships
-scholarship apps
dangit, I also forgot I have to burn a cd with pictures people have sent me for the senior video
-burn cd

basically, today I should spend 3 hours working on the paper (2pm-5pm) then at 5 I will take a shower and get ready for church

tomorrow morning I will get up early and go to the place to get my shot done. I will take my biology book with me and study there while I wait and take a break around lunch time. After lunch I will come home and study a little bit more then relax until work. Saturday morning I will hang out with Andrew if hes in town and then work on some math homework (and maybe get him to help me figure it out?) then after math, I will finish the scholarship applications. Then I will take another break then get ready for church. Sunday I will work all day on the paper and study some more for bio.

I didn't leave any time in for shopping or burning a cd because I know they will workthemselves in there somewhere. oh yeah, going out to a movie or bowling or something like that will probably work its way in there too.

so basically I should subtract another 10 hours for all of that and I have 10 hours to work on homework, which actually, is quite substantial compared to the time I put into homework on school nights/work nights.

oh graduation, you are coming so quickly.

and if you actually read this whole thing, props for you since I like to blab about nothing and waste time

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[29 Apr 2005|07:38am]

T.G.I.F.

 

Life has been way too crazy and busy lately.

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[02 Apr 2005|10:41pm]
[ mood | sad ]

                      R.I.P. Pope John Paul II

                                          1920- 2005

 

                       

"Have no fear of moving into the unknown.
Simply step out fearlessly knowing that I am with you, therefore no harm can befall you; all is very, very well. Do this in complete faith and confidence."
-Pope John Paul II

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random.. as usual [02 Apr 2005|10:20pm]
[ mood | too busy ]

yet again, life is busy and I am lazy. i swear i'll never change no matter how much I want to. I wrote one entry last month so maybe I will try to catch up. We are done at pchs forever and I was happy and sad to go. I feel like I'm experiencing a lot of history the past few years. Starting with the twin towers.. to the war... to the hurricane and going to port charlotte high.. to the popes death today. I'll be able to one day tell my grandkids all about this stuff. I got a job at Winn Dixie. I like it there when I work with my friends.. which is starting to be most of the people there. Although it sucks when its busy and it sucks they are in need of people to work therefore I have to work more. I worked everyday over spring break except for 3 days. One of which (today) I'm babysitting. Regardless, I've had a pretty fun break. Last Thursday night was the best though! The dance was so much fun and so was the afterparty at john johnsons... goooooooooooooood times! The convoy made me want to cry. Not a sad or happy cry but a "touched" cry. Our town really does care about us. I Love the tradition at chs and I love our spirit. It's cheesy but I really do feel like its a family. People from other schools have asked me why we all have so much spirit and its just the way things are I guess. I'm really enjoying high school and I dont want it to ever end. College I'm sure will be fun too but I know for me it will be a struggle. A struggle to hold on to my faith and to work hard at my future. I'm just so incredibly lazy, I don't know how I will manage. Well... I have another year to grow up and enjoy life I guess.
Things with Andrew are great. I really care about him a lot =). It's nice to have someone you can be yourself around... 100% of the time. We are going to last a long time and I look forward to it.
Some friends are going through hard times right now and I want to do my best to be there for them all. ...They all know who they are and I Love them so much

Next on my crazy schedule....
--I leave Wed night for tampa with SGA.. we are staying in a hotel and the next morning flying to tallahassee... then we will spend a day there doing tons of stuff and the next day driving to panama city for the student gov. convention.. which is tons of fun! I wont be back until Monday :D
--The weekend after that I'm going to be working at a retreat for the Edge middle school youth group
--The weekend after that is acquire the fire but i dont think im going to be able to go since
#1-- money
#2-- I'm painting/ redoing my room and need a weekend to actually do it since I bought most of the stuff already! (this entails new bed, bed set, and im painting my furniture, etc)
#3-- I still havent gotten a prom dress and by this weekend, prom will be less than 2 weeks away (isnt that lovely)


STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

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[11 Mar 2005|09:18pm]
[ mood | in pain ]

getting your wisdom teeth out sucks so bad. i feel so lonely since everyone is out having fun and im sitting alone in constant pain in my room. ugh im sick of sleeping and im sick of tv. At least andrew came to see me for a little. I swear these pain meds do nothing because my mouth is KILLING me. well, i'll write more when I feel better.... :(

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[16 Feb 2005|10:06pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I think he just wanted to use everyword he knows in english..

haitham=king of randomness.Collapse )

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Happy Valentines day [15 Feb 2005|12:02am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Valentines day doesn't have to be all about "couples." Valentines day is just another opportunity to show the people you Love how much you Love them. Everyday should be Valentines day.. wouldn't that be nice??

I started off my morning by getting up at 7am to make Andrew brownies and drop them off before his practice. They turned out perfect and I didn't burn them one bit! (This is a very good thing for me). Later I met the girls for lunch and we did stupid cupid (Basically Secret Santa but for Valentines day!) I had Lindsey E. and I got her a cute throw blanket from target with hearts on it and a little mrs. fields chocolate heart thing. Erika had me and got me two cute lipglosses and nail polishes. =)

                                                           

My mom got me a cute card and Andrew got me the cute doggy. (Erika got me the cute bag). So in Andrews classes today, I left an envelope in each filled with a candy. Also, I left slips of paper that formed a note. (Example: First hour= I will Love you... Second= Forever... Third=I will Love you... Fourth=For Always... Five=As long as I'm living, Six= My baby   you'll be).. He surprised me with a dozen pink roses,3 balloons, and a little puppy animal. :-D

                                        

Anyways....... this year is flying by wayyy too fast!!!!! It's almost the end of the third quarter and I REGISTER FOR MY SENIOR CLASSES IN A WEEK. crazy I know... I have to make some extremely tough decisions soon. I don't know what classes to take and what to give up. (what do you mean by "give up?") WELL!

I wanted to take: DC Spanish, DC Composition, and DC Biology next year and I was pretty set on those three. But GUESS WHAT!!?!? Edison has decided to be GAY and enforce the rule that "high school students can only have 11 credits per semester." The rule has supposedly been there for a while but under a new admin, they have decided to enforce it. Their reasoning? With more than 11 credits you are considered a full time college student and Edison + Charlotte cannot both claim a student for federal money. Basically what this means is... I can only take two DC classes next year. How am I supposed to pick between those three??? It's absolutely ridiculous that students can't take the classes they want to take because of federal money. What happened to public education being free??? I am appalled by it and I am going to be researching it greatly so I can fully support my opinion and hopefully challenge it. Yes, I would like to challenge Edisons rule because it is not fair to students like me who can't afford summer sessions... about 900 dollars for DC Bio..... isnt that lovely.

k. goodnight.. Love you all

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[07 Feb 2005|12:26am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

we named him...... SNUFFY! Like snuffalufagus from sesame street!! (We almost picked Oliver) anyways im really tired.. just thought I would let you all know hehe

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